Fadt Tay Ahh AKHDZ 's life

seventeenth

2012-02-11T03:23:00.000-08:00

tenfeb

elevenfeb.

turning seventeen in th month of February.. these two brothers had been there for me when i needed an entertainment. thanks so much. i hope tt ths dragon year gonna be a good one, especially knowing tt its gonna be a crucial year.HAPPY SEVENTEENTH!

2012-02-02T23:55:00.000-08:00

been trying so hard t adapt t it but its just so hard. why do you leave me when i needed you th most? how i wish you were here. please, come back. i really really need you. dont you knw how much i miss you. th way you talk, th way you walk. oh pretty please, come back! oh, MR LEK GYM CHYE aka AHCHAI!!!! nyeahah! gosh! you have no idea how much ive been struggling in handling ths and tt. i seriously need someone t help me with chem practical. explain proper and we'll understand. keep scolding and we wont learn. simple as tt. ty!

2012-01-30T05:00:00.000-08:00

you dont always get what you want in life. sometimes, if it was meant t happen, it will happen...

2012-01-20T06:18:00.000-08:00

CNY celebration wasnt as exciting as always because my class didnt took part in th dragon mascot competition. should we have people volunteer t be th mascot, it shall be Hairul, how much exciting it would be. but, sadly, nehh. so, supported other sec five classes and out of th two tt took part, none won. mcm siak, yes i know. so there goes mini 'riot' between sec fives and fours at th upper gallery (which i guess th funnest part of all). for what seemed like an eternity, and tt my butt hurts A LOT, we went outta th gallery and was caught by mrChow (standard) but still, theres always another way out. nyeahah. see, as we grow up, we refuse t listen t someone older, especially those who many dislike. PEACE!

i wasnt taken aback by what you said. you kept seeing and thinking th other way. was i referring t you? no! sorry if i had phrase it wrongly. i know i should have rephrase it, but i didnt becauseeeee, *crick crick crick* oh well, just dont think or see it th negative way, pretty please? i friend you, you friend me. i care for you, you care for me, tts all imma ask for. ty. remember how much trouble/happiness we went through, i'm pretty sure none of us would want t break th bond between us.

2012-01-19T00:19:00.000-08:00

It is better to be hated for what you are than loved for what you are not.

okay, so i guess i know who cares 'bout me more. thank you for your concern, classmates and t those who spent a thought for me. now, i know tt i am actually with a group of caring classmates, including those i never talk t before *weird but YAR!* they too care 'bout me. wasnt feeling very well during PE (actually since before i went t school) i almost collapse, or i guess i did. i vividly remember what happened. it was th exciting part of th game when th "eeeeeee" sound in my head and tt severely humid weather made th Earth revolved around me. refused t go t sickbay but th pain was killing me, no choice, spent my whole FIVE periods of english lesson in sickbay, doing nothing but sleeping/resting for minutes.

~~Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend.~~

2012-01-16T04:59:00.000-08:00

its all about Learning Earning and Yearning.. i was always looking outside myself for confidence and strength, but thn i realized tt it comes from within. there is no limit t what you can imagine. after th mentoring program, i am looking forward for another session. i know it might be 'dry' at times, but, it kinda alert me of where i stand right now and thn and reflect on what have i been doing. as ths year is going t be a very crucial year, i am ALL ready t take up motivations and y'know, study study and study till i hit my target by prelim. yes, it sounds 'crazy' but yeah, dare t dream, dare t achieve.

2012-01-10T03:05:00.000-08:00

imagine tt youre taking your MT Olevel paper seriously. thn you got grade3. you find it ridiculous in some ways and decided t resit for it. you told yourself tt whatever result you were t get ths time, you'll drop MT in sec5. when results cme out, you were expecting a different grade, a better one of course, but it turned out t be th same grade3. you felt tt it may be th best already.. thn you were given a choice t drop or retake. if you retake, you might have th chance t improve your grade BUT th format of th papers will be different. you have around five months t adapt t th new format. if you drop, you die die must improve your English and achieve AT LEAST a grade3 and tt you know tt your English sux A LOT, you'll have t work double hard. so how? are you gonna retake or drop??

sec one orientation

2012-01-07T06:17:00.000-08:00

5-6 jan 2012, sec ones had their orientation, so i volunteered to help up. oneTone is really a fun class i must say. sadly, they left me out, as a student leader, on Thursday during Emazing Race. so i decided t go out and join Haslinah Zulbob and Danish. sad right? hehh. at last, by Friday morning, i kinda get t know almost half of them. not bad, hahh? *winkwink* it was, ookay luh. campfire, ALL OUT! *smiles* i must say tt sec ones ths year are all very very very cute.. shooo shmallll. heheh.
7 jan 2012, outta with Amy Zulbob Ajie and Danish t RP SP and NP. it was, alright luh. i am considering t take up Hospitality, Engineering or Media and Communication course. well, its not too late nor too early t decide on which course or which poly should i go in to.. whatever it is, all i have t do right now all th way t november is study study and study! should start studying now actually but i am soo freaking tired tt i'm unable t do much.

2012-01-03T23:18:00.000-08:00

upon a sleepless night

lessons in school for first two days was seriously .... next two days, there will be poly visit, am looking forward for tht, definitely! (; oh, and and, sec one orientation. was thinking if i could actually take back my words and not be involve in ths sec one's orientation. but it seems like i rather take part in their event rather thn sitting in th middle of th class, doing SHEETS of papers and oh, i mean SHITS! besides, ths is my last involvement in sports leaders duty, i hope. haiyy, kay luh, gonna take a nap. seriously, i have t get use t sleeping early so no more in th bluesssss.

2012-01-01T23:52:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year! 2012, please be good (; thankyou.. am i ready for school? study? ohhh, definitely, NOT!

mini reunion

2011-12-30T20:43:00.000-08:00

30dec11, out with Ain Hafizah Liana and and Rafidah. went to e!hub to watch movie. thought of New Year's Eve but at last watched The Darkest Hour. wuw! fun fun fun, its really a must to watch ;D thn we had our own heart-to-heart session, cheyyy, heheh. thn there was ths group of unknown people playing soccer and Rafidah was like, 'i wanna play also', so she joined. woaaah. hehh. cant wait for feb 2012, there will be 6D reunion, wuw! fun fun fun! please let tt happen (';

2011-12-29T05:05:00.000-08:00

can luh hahh. kinda messy but well, tts OUR hard work, right RinaJams? hee. thanks t Rina for letting me messed up her kitchen, hee. it was real fun. after soo long, FINALLY. niway, purpose of me baking ths cake is becaussssse, its 29dec! mummy rock and daddy shyshy 21th ANNIVERSARY!!! awwwwe me, heheh. planned t bake cupcakes but Hayani wasnt around t guide us and th instructions was rather diff t understand, complicated, so we just go ahead and bake ths.
mum, dad, happy anniversary! after sixteen years you raised me up well and in good health, how can i forget ths special day of yours? thank you soo freaking much for EVERYTHING. loved, your aiketut, nur fathiah binte abdul hamed!

out & enjoy

2011-12-21T06:40:00.000-08:00

been outta house. twenty, off t VivoCity with Rina Dheeraj Haslinah Ashiq Illy Zulbob Haqim Shaz Masuri and and Humai. planned for a bbq for all 4A3 and 4A4 malay students but due t th weather, which was kinda bad, we had t cancelled it and planned other activities. thought of going for a "picnic" at Botanic Garden, and again, it was cancelled real last minute. so thn, we all walked around ViviCity..
Twenty-one, first of all, HAPPY 16TH BDAY t HASLINAH!!!! sorry for not wishing you earlier, i forgot! so so so soooo sorrrrryyyy. but whatever it is, i believe you'd blast on ths special day of yours (;
next, went out with my other four 'lovely' siblings. it was lil bro's idea. he badly wanted t watch Alvin & th Chipmunks 3. he even treated us, WOW right? hehh. so yea, "celebrated" my success with siblings ^^ loveyaall!

alhamdulillah,

2011-12-19T05:24:00.001-08:00

ya Allah, terima kasih kerana Kau telah makbulkan doa ku. Amin Amin ya rabal a'lamin.

guess what? miracle does happen and it happened t me. being one of th top N student in school was unexpected. i'm grateful and thankful. apart frm tt, i'm seriously proud of "kita kita". even though Feez didnt make it through t sec five, he did his best. t Hayani Rina Masuri Ajie Zulbob and Amy, i really want t see you guys next year. please please please, dont worry, i know you guys will be able t make it through. Hayani, fish & co.? dont worry, told ya you'll get tt point! (((;

stresssss..

2011-12-17T07:35:00.001-08:00

...: arent you nervous 'bout your result?

me: okay okay luh. ((duhhh. how can i not be? urgh!))

...:result is coming out real soooooon

me: yarrr, i know already. ((kayyyyy. now, shut up already!))

...: you'll sure make it t sec five

me: if God wills *smiles* ((oh please, dont talk 'bout it))

cheeese^^

2011-12-16T08:21:00.000-08:00

back frm SNO's picnic. i seriously miss SNO gatherings. ths may be th last time we gather (as in 2011 batch) woah, sad or what. haiyaaaa. oh ya, went for 4A4 chalet (kay, it wasnt really chalet 'coz i only attend during th BBQ, hee), last Wednesday. finally met Hayani (much misses) *smiles* she bought ths cool shit camera (ehysen!) she havent upload th pictures we took *chillex* played at th arcade and it was tuuuuuud. $2 gone just like tt (serve me right) i didnt had fun there, at th arcade b'coz....... all th "machines" were spoil. only Hayani knws my tt dang situation.

ths three girls were really closed th last time. we had gone through thick and thin together. its like impossible for ths three ladies t go on separate ways. you never knw what will happen in future. will you be able t see us as ONE again? seriously, i miss those times whn we hang out after school. head t nowhere *smiles* those laughter, those nonsense, those noises we created *tear* i just miss those times. Fayasaki Arosyito, Rinasaki Sushimero, Hayasaki Zimero *sigh* i have ths box filled with notes. notes tt you guys gave t me. there was ths one time when we weren't in good condition. i dont knw where t side. at times i was with one of you, and at times i was with th other. but in th end, we get along well. i believe, true friendship stays strong and last forever. niway, been planning t go somewhere with ths pretty ladies. its been so long since we last hang out. so, ths holiday may be th best time for us t get along. i'm sure there are lots and lots t talk 'bout *smiles*

ths isnt reality

2011-12-14T21:24:00.000-08:00

had real bad dream last last night. it was 'bout N result and it was rather terrible. i got nineteen. i was too shocked tt i couldnt tear (hell, what theeeee) ya Allah, dont let tt dream be reality. i badly want t hit my target and tt is t get at least fifteen for five subjects. mummy just reminded me tt result is next monday and i was like, "yarrr, i know *and dont remind me again*" mixed feelings now. i'm sick! i couldnt bear holding on ths feelings and sickness. burgh! gotta pray hard. only Allah knows in what kinda situation i am in right now.

family trip^^

2011-12-13T04:29:00.000-08:00

three days two nights in Malaysia. first night in KL, another night in PD. spent much on shopping actually. museum visit on 2nd day was cool shit, like like like! schedule changed a lot, no idea why. now i'm back home! *stomach ache*

result's next week. i kept thinking what kinda result imma get back. seriously, i dont want t disappoint my parents. its all 'bout my effort, their effort, their money and MY FUTURE. badly want t make it t sec 5 )'; i want t tear for joy. yes! i badly want t tear for JOY. i dont want t enter ITE 'coz i know mummy and daddy wouldnt be pleased t hear tt. so yea, *pray hard*

short meet up

2011-12-08T04:22:00.000-08:00

off t T2 t meet Zulfeqhar yesterday. he's with Qamaa now *officially* awwwe ((; its been sooo long since i last saw him. accompanied him t get his pay but in th end, teeeed. postpone t monday. nyeahah.

went t gym with Danish just now. invited Feez and Ain but couldnt make it. oh ya, walked t PRSRC with Ain and catch up with some stuff. its been SUPERRR LOOOOOONG since i last talk t her. th journey was too short and there are A LOT of stuff t talk 'bout. met Feez after th "workout" thn walked back with Danish. as usual, he 'promote' his nonsense videos. hehh.

HAYANI.A oi!!!! kau di mana??? aku text, kau tak reply )); kau g holiday senyap senyap eh eh??? oi! aku rindu kau macam nak rak! before result, meet me, please? before i leave for M'sia, text me, please?

2011-12-06T07:05:00.000-08:00

off t town with Farsha Zulbob and and Syafiq yesterday. bought some stuffs and lepak? thn met Akak at Tamp t buy her foot wear and my kebab, peace! hehh. oh oh, brought some kaching and went back with NO kaching! sad right? aiseyyy.. *sob sob* Hayani didnt reply my texts )); what t do?? sigh. so yea, am waiting for Saturday t come and i shall have all th fun fun fun before entering th school hall t collect my result slip *seraaaamsxzzz*

back from Indon ((:

2011-12-01T02:03:00.000-08:00

my mortal *AIDIL*

much misses : Arek and Naresh

i have a dream,

2011-11-25T02:29:00.000-08:00

th biggest adventure you can take is t live th life of your dreams.

-oprah

flying tomorrow with a heavy heart. been tearing all day long, no mood, ignored people at home, sigh sigh and sigh, missing people, thinking 'bout somethimg i never want t think 'bout. i dont know why, seriously, but i really hope ths mixed feelings will slip off before i leave for Indon tomorrow. hmmphs.

fathiaHayani ^^

2011-11-13T05:40:00.000-08:00

went t ACM thn t i-forgot-what hotel thn t Marina Bay Sand. i swear it was funfunfun despite th heavy rain delay our time and all. hee. thnks Hayani for th super-great-fun day!! ((((;

2011-11-01T23:00:00.000-07:00

i wanna go out. jom Hayani, jom, soon yea, sooon. *sigh*

2011-10-18T21:11:00.000-07:00

i couldnt bear thinking 'bout my N's results. slept with tears last night. i know tt i've not given th best and tt's exactly why i should be afraid and nervous t get back my result. urgh! i should have revised intensely. like wht others said "N? easy luh" yes, it was doable but... haisss, if only i could turn back th time, i would want t re-do my humanities, english and Emaths paperTWO. these papers were th ones worrying me. hais luh nasib. next up, Emaths and malay 0level. i know tt mummyrock, and in fact daddyshyshy, really want me t do them well. now tt i have like a week t my maths paper, i shan't waste anymore time. *sigh*

last friday night

2011-10-17T03:53:00.001-07:00

*tired! yet fun ((;*

2011-10-12T05:32:00.000-07:00

AKU SAYANG HAYANI.A! SERIOUSLY AND HONESTLY!! kay, bye!

it's finally over!

2011-10-07T05:45:00.000-07:00

i'm stress freee! not! heheh. N's finally over and papers were doable, somehow. alhamdulillah. but but but.... there's ths event next week, special one and dress code is : SMART CASUAL. as usual, being me just sux. i dont know what t wear!! ): help me think can? okay can! (:

2011-10-04T08:50:00.000-07:00

i wanna get ths done and over with. i badly wanna go secfive. i badly wanna make it a dream come true. N, please be nice. (,:

07sept2011

2011-09-07T22:26:00.000-07:00

why are there much surprise on ths date, 07sept? I dont know if theres hope for english paper one. Lost. Slip off mind. Exhausted.
i truly know and understand how you guys feel. its th worst feeling one could ever have. i have no say other than stay strong kayyy?
niway, didnt wish dad happy bday. well, initially wanted to wish him early morning but yaa, fun jalan jalan and eventually totally forgot. soooo sorry );

beb,

2011-08-25T06:00:00.000-07:00

i miss those/these times. sorry ;/ imma get back th happy me and be th happy me. we shall laugh out loud like nobody's business, again.

complicated

2011-08-24T00:27:00.000-07:00

mood swing for no reason, sorry if i sux at times. its just th 'new' me trynna get back to th old me. so, hating these days loving prelim results so far except malay, sigh.

disconsolate *sigh

2011-08-19T21:49:00.000-07:00

tearing, thinking of how much mistakes ive made. plenty of them. its just plenty of, what i would love to call, SHITS! burnt midnight oil just to get things right and absorbed. attended paper few hours after that. minutes after completing th paper, relieved. went home, realised that there were mistakes done on every questions. why isit that i realised that there were mistakes made when everything cant be undone? either its just me who is starting to get dumb every second or its th inception of my downfall after tasting th success last year.. idontknow. feeling hopeless and restless. but is it congenial for me to take a break ths time when N is only three weeks away? indeed, not. God, i dont want to set down mum and dad 's high hopes. so pretty please prelims, you deserve better.

was born ths way

2011-08-09T23:10:00.000-07:00

assalammualaikum, set me free can? i want to be stress free, i want to be smart, i dont want to study. if only i can store everything at once, woahhh sey uh.

L.I.F.E

2011-07-29T06:38:00.000-07:00

im sorry for th cold shoulders. we were soooo close back then but now? not anymore, why? coz of me. im truly sorry. i'll TRY and i know i MUST. i just want to be like in my 1990s. lively childhood is all im thinking 'bout. i remember you bringing me everywhere you go. you pampered me too much i guess, thats why im like THIS. just thank you for EVERYTHING. 30+ more days, and i'll give what you want, i promise (well i hope so)

bday-bday-bday

2011-07-22T07:25:00.000-07:00

happy 1oth bday to my lovely sister, Faaiqa. thought of buying a cake, but i literally forgot 'bout it, how bad am i. nehmind, i promised myself to buy for her something tomorrow (:
kay, lets start ths right. "celebrated" an awesome friend's bday. bought her cake and movie tickets. so basically, planned with Ajie and Feez. sadly, i had to lie to her, but greatly, everything went smoothly. Harry Potter was seriously gerek glerrrr! sad to say uh eh, its th last part. no more Potter ); taaaakp luh.
and to dearest soul sister, HayaniA, thanks for not being "degil" for once (; thanks for being there for me. thanks for th silly jokes, laughters and all. thank soooo much. ths is one of th way to show you my appreciation. thank YOU sooooo much. aqu ayanq kaw laaa hoi! heheh.

i am no.THIRTEEN

2011-07-07T00:53:00.000-07:00

had a really bad dream last night, titanic sank, and i was one of th survivors. jeng jeng :/ niway, plan to eat at fish & co. was cancelled. i decided to keep myself awake so i'll not have any trouble sleeping at night. so here i am, facing th lappy, killing time. haiyaaaa. malay 0 oral done, phew~ english N up next. i have no idea what's gonna come out. kay luh. will be gone for, weeks? months? gotta pull up my socks and start revising (non stop) phne isnt important for th time being. so, imma apologise first if i dont reply any of your text, kay? kay bye!

love and life

2011-07-02T05:13:00.000-07:00

RinaJ : hey girl jambu, who always offers me kendarat job, its 2nd july. HAPPY SWEET SIXTEENTH BDAY! have a blast on ths special day of yours * smiles *
mum : please dont nag, or more likely to force me to eat, anymore. i understand you, i know you dont want me to get weak and all. but i just couldnt bear hearing you nag all th time. i'm big enough to live my life and standing on own foot. iloveyou.
dad : please dont piss me off, again. knock on th door once, ring th bell once and you're welcome in.
atok : imissyou, ALOT. RIP please..
whoever : sorry for not replying your text(s), again and again. i know youve hurt too much. but yea, its just that i dont feel like texting. thanks for understanding and th waiting and sorry for th hurt ...
... : i dont know why, i just cant shoo you away. imissyou.

i fear nothing! (;

2011-06-27T03:00:00.000-07:00

awwwwwe! ths kitten reminds me of...... ahhhh! i miss Aniq already ); hmmm. kay shut! niway, had kendarat yesterday from eleven to five, with R.A.I.N. kaching kaching! instead of working, Ikan and i actually pretty much spent half of th working time on running away from little kitty. basket th ball. but, we managed to pet it once and thats it. hehh. oh, not to forget. saw an uncle/grandpa who looks somewhat like arwah atok ); yes, i kept staring at him ); ths kendarat is soooo meaningful. *mcm P* then then, went to watch rasuk with R.I.N + D. rasuk? yes yes yes, rasuk *smiles* niway, was quite gawky with R.A.I.N at first, but you see, hey, we're friends, sooo yea. oh, and and missed soccer. thanks uh eh. but no regret. th movie was absolute thumbs up! i must say.

2011-06-25T00:01:00.000-07:00

be strong? i'm doing fine, i guess. one's gone, EVERYTHING change.

when momma watches a soccer match, she'll be like, " uh goal? pndai bdak ni. score luh lagi. sape name? " when another opponent score, " goal? pnat bdak bdak tadi tuu. da luh, nak g basoh pinggan. " so, i must say, momma soo cute when watching soccer (:

2011-06-22T03:20:00.000-07:00

hey Tom Dick and Harry, stop acting soo daft. Tom, you said you knew how it feels like. then you still have th cheek to ask whether am i okay or not. what do you expect, to be just fine after one's death? hahah? Dick, i dont know whether youre acting like a damfool or youre really are damfool. i told you i need to save my ppd. and i told you i have no mood to entertain anyone. but you can still text me and asked why i was acting so strange and so. burgh. you guys are trying to be a buffoon or what? thanks uh eh.

why so mean? );

2011-06-21T00:41:00.000-07:00

Atok was admitted to CGH on friday night, due to breathing difficulty. was shopping hari raya clothes at geylang and when that news came along, my heart just sank.but mummy went on with her jokes and "karena", and so i kinda forgotten 'bout my worrisome of Atok's condition. saturday morning, mummy woke us up and said, "wake up! Atok's condition has worsen! we'll have to go hospital N0W!" upon hearing that, i jerked out of bed. th last to bathe but th first to wait in front of th door. i dont care how sakai i look or how ugly i appear outside. all i care about was Atok, Atok's condition and how fast we'll get there. on th way to hospital, i realised i was th only one walking waaaay in front. turn back, i lost them but i dont care. put my best feet forward and continue walking all by myself. reached there, i hold back my tears but when daddy called Atok, so lovingly, tears just rolled down. no appetite to eat and all. i just want to be with Atok. before i left, i wanted to kiss Atok's forehead, but i didnt want to tear again in front f mummy and daddy. so went off with heavy heart. i wanted to tell mummy that i wished to stay with Atok, but words just couldnt spit out. mummy thought i had a problem. yes, and my problem is, i cant possibly stay at home when my heart, mind and soul was by Atok's side. i didnt feel right that night. as long as Atok was in th hospital, i wont feel right. that midnight, sha went in th room and said, "youre awake? Atok had left us" ); i told ya my instinct was right! i couldnt accept th fate that time. till now, it was hard for me to mention "ARWAH". sunday morning, i couldnt believe that was my last time i'm able to see him. when i kissed his forehead, that was my FIRST and LAST time i did that ); Atok was a strong man who wanders around th mall, bringing life and joy to himself, all by himself. why cant i be th one making him happy? all i ever wanted was to be able to see him smile again ); its all too late. i miss him, badly! );

yesterday,

2011-06-10T23:19:00.000-07:00

ten of june, Nazar Nasir's sixteenth bday. he celebrated his special day with dearest sno collegues. like Ayyied's bday, we conquer one to two rows in th cinema. watched Xmen first class. it was, walaaaaah. before that, cut-th-cake ceremony at dont know where. after th movie, ate at "asli village" first time? yea, hee. dismissed, some went back home while others lepak at pasir ris park. overall, ooookayy luh. was somehow tired so i wasnt really being myself to be able to enjoy as much as i'm supposed to, so yea :/ ths year there's like more sno outing then just-friends outing, i believe (:

here comes another D0ING-N0THING-day...

SUMPAH GEREK GLER!!!

2011-06-07T05:13:00.000-07:00

th reason to why we're named cutie-pie

all ths while, i didnt think that camp would be exciting coz staying overnight in school was NO FUN. but after ths camp, i'm certainly looking forward for th next camp. day by day, at camp, was seriously gerek. th bonding was real strong, totally different from any other camps before ths. when Kika passed me th mic to voice out what i felt, i was gonna say "dear sno collegues. throughout ths year so far, ths is th best batch ive ever been with. you guys made me tear a lot but thanks sooo much. you guys are like my first family. yea, FIRST. honestly, cos i'm not THAT close with my own family. but when i'm with you ALL, i could easily speak up, joke around and all. thanks for making me like i really belong to Siglap Nusantara 0rchestra. after ths, no sno, i swear it wouldnt be fun anymore. may all ths fun leads to better sno in future. love ya all" but i didnt want to tear again, so i didnt manage to say all ths.

it's JULY and,

2011-05-31T23:13:00.000-07:00

2011-05-31T05:53:00.000-07:00

i'm done with malay. please please please, i'm begging you like SERIoUSLY, dont make me repeat malay 'o' again. oh pretty please. urgh. been checking answers after th paper with whoever and answers given were all different. and i hate it when all imma said was "oooooh yaaaaaaaaaa. why didnt i freaking think of that answer" ahhhhhhhhhhhhh! kay, whats done is done. but seriously! i dont wanna F-ing waste another thirty-two $$! sigh sigh sigh sigh sighhhhhhhh

feedbacks,

2011-05-26T06:28:00.000-07:00

yes, got back report slip. as expected, shits drawn from up to down. 'cher was all th way had her eyes on me when she announced th top three in class. but i knew it, it wouldnt be me. so yea, i was right. grade one to a U, how else do you expect to be placed on top. no shame, yes. i got a one, a bthree, two fives, a c6 and a U. getting U and c6 is sooooooo unpleasant to be seen in report slip, sigh. dont mind 'bout positions and all. all imma mind is percentage and EMB3. as for now, from 74 (last year, EoY) to 63 percent. so tell me, sad right? i know. hmmphs.

after june,

2011-05-25T02:58:00.000-07:00

as planned, o4june - o7june.

SNo's still around. but then after, "farewell" yea, its kinda saddening yea see. but will gain back th joyness when december comes. if its not 'cause of SYF'11, we'll never know that shits really exist.

towards june holiday, thats th part that we all fear. th getting back of report slip. truly, i never feared 'bout it. but i guess ths year *sigh* maybe i can escape from showing dad my exams scripts. but after th report slip is given out, i dont think there's any way out. sooo, yea. will be waiting for friday to haunt and there comes another shit. brrrgh.

when april ended,

2011-05-25T02:23:00.001-07:00

i swear i miss APRIL );

Nur Fathiah Ikann Superfishaku rindu SYF and rindu kene marah ngn kau pasal gmba tu, tu pasal aku ltak balik )));
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Ikann Superfish ‎:( why you make me wanna cry :( RINDUUU LAAAAAAAA .
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Nur Fathiah hahah. i know! i swear i miss APRIL! burgh!
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Ikann Superfish Fadt , jom , bbl2 lagi :( sumpah ni kes , sumpah aku rindu kau gila babi .
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Nur Fathiah urgg, ); on! aku rindu kau jgk. ehy, aku rindu study group plaq. hmmphs
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Ikann Superfish aku rindu acher ! Hahhhaha , Aku rindu semua la , aku rindu time kau , aku dgn zul , buat private meeting , kat mana2 kita nak . Hahahaha!
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Nur Fathiah urgh!!!!! GoSH! uhuh sia. line tak clear, pusing area. hahah! you made me cry luh sia. i dont care, i want to turn back th time!
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Ikann Superfish aku pun! tgh tahan airmata :( Errrgghhhhhhh .
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Nur Fathiah ni luh kite, bdak bdak ehsai_kaysiow
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Ikann Superfish Hahahha! Shit siaaa , *ahma , nak usu* RINDUKAN DENGAR LINE TU ? :(
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Nur Fathiah uhhrrrrr! eh, rindu gler babs lurh! and th way Hayani react after that. hahah
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Ikann Superfish Yani has the most epic and weirdest reaction . hahaha
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*prangai FB, yes i know (;*

all i ever wanted,

2011-05-22T22:15:00.000-07:00

if only i could afford these. uhnfortunately, not now. but by end of th year. we'll see. *day dream*

ty results! ):

2011-05-19T02:48:00.000-07:00

results out, foods in. when i'm stress, i'll eat ( A LoT) yea. and when i eat as and when i want, i'm ready to put on weight ( sadly but yea )

i'm slowly straightening th curves (:

???

2011-05-15T22:54:00.000-07:00

you have a problem with me friending with him? no? then, STFU like serious shit.

and friend, it would have been two years. imissyou ( BADLY i mean )

i'm ME

2011-05-15T21:44:00.000-07:00

*thinking too much that i just cant sleep well ths few days. as a result : eyebag *

i badly wanna drop Emaths and malay by next year. but by looking at my malay mid year result, it would bring me to nowhere but down th drain. revealing th reality right before my eyes could get me to nowhere. i'm sorry mom, dad. i did my best. just need to know, its not th end YET. i have two bloody more weeks from now on and three more chances. i'm sorry to waste your money. but seriously, i'm trying to not waste your money, dad. so as it is, malay paper two pulled me down. all i wanna blame is SYF, but thinking back, it's me. me and my unplanned schedule. i'm just being myself, th lazy one, th ehsai one, th kotai one, th ungrateful one, th fat one.

the awesome two,

2011-05-12T00:41:00.000-07:00

you got a problem with that? when shits happened for absolute no reason, we shall stand back and see how far can they go, talking 'bout us (innocent people). realizing that we're not at th losing end, we shall all laugh together, giving thunderous round of applause for those seekers who eventually will give up and STFU for once *sarcastic smile*

beb, cheer up yea ;))

i'm done!

2011-05-11T23:13:00.000-07:00

after so long of ehsai-ing, do nothing but to sit by th fan, emo-ing away. heheh.

oh, and and, dont set high hopes kay? kay great!

2011-05-10T22:14:00.000-07:00

AKU RINDU KAU! );

ty longboard );

2011-05-10T21:18:00.000-07:00

been outta study group, and finally MYE's done! fell off longboard ); got hit hard on th head, and now people call me 'lohan' cause got ths hump thingy. one damn big big bruise on my left side. it was freaking swey but i must say it was fun, though (: instead of sympathy, they gave me ths damn loud laugh. amaaaak, see, what "gooooooood" friends they are. hehh. so yea. when you tell mummy youre going outta study, make sure you study and not do anything else, kay? kay great!
oh ya! i wrote shits on my Amaths paper two! =P most likely to fail, woaaaaaah. hell yea, shit happens for a reason ):

EXAM = study group

2011-04-29T20:31:00.000-07:00

HN0 and SN0 really wanna go for THAT freaking twelve days trip!!! thats why we're like studying like mad now. hahah!

2011-04-23T21:29:00.000-07:00

i'm sick and tired of evasions and lies. well, telling lies leads to th feeling of guilty. but telling th truth may also leads to th feeling of guilty. so, what now? burgh!

everyone's turning a year older

2011-04-23T20:51:00.000-07:00

22april , Kika's sixteenth bday. we celebrated during our last sno training before th SYF which was on th 19april. her mom bought two swensens cakes for us to celebrate her bday, sweeeeeeet glerrrrr~

23april , Ayyied's fifteenth bday. went out yesterday with hno and sno. pathetic thing is that there were only three hno collegue. th rest paitao, sad right? nyeheh. and there were a total of twenty two of us. there was me Ayyied Farsha Aneep Acher Nasir Zulbob Amy Feez Dinah Kika Katy Hanisah Ikan Zulka Hidayat Aidil Afiq Afiqah Atiqah Alisya and Aryati. woah, not bad, i remembered all of them. hee. so went to e!hub, watched Athur. i must say it was th wrong movie to watch. first few parts was like, alamak! hahha. but towards th end, okay luh. still, better than JB's, which Nasir insisted on watching. teeed! nyeaheh. before th movie, we waited for an hour or two for all to appear. lucky it was th bday boy who was late, if not, jeng jeng. hehh. meanwhile, waiting for th movie to start, head to an open area to 'celebrate' bday boy's bday. his bday, he planned th outing, he brought th cake. aiseyyyy. over all, had fun luh.

ps : exam's coming and here i am, blogging, fb-ing. no life sia Fadt. c'mon Fadt, get your eyes off ths lappy and your butt out of ths chair!!!

GWH is still ours, sno =)

2011-04-21T05:43:00.000-07:00

standing ovasion. tears of satisfaction / joy / sadness?? thunderous applause. all at one go.

2o April 2o11, " AK o4, siglap secondary school, SILVER " upon that announcement, people from th front, from other school turned to look at us, question marks. sno collegues teared. we dare to accept th risk, so we have to accept whatever result. getting silver may be a great drop from last two years result, Gold With Honour. but, we did ths for someone we appreciate a lot, mr Khamis. we know we did our best, we let it all out. its our job to perform th best, and its th audience, th judges, who will be judging. who would expect we get silver with THAT kinda great quality. even others started to forecast, "abis uh, honours lagi uh" thank God they said it that way. different people have different perceptions, so jyeah.

21 April 2o11, " GM o1, siglap secondary school... GoLD! " with that, we stood up, shouted our organs out like nobody else's business. i teared. i really teared. history repeats. we managed to maintain our result, at least a gold. thank God, alhamdulillah :'))))))

th moment we've been waiting for

2011-04-18T05:33:00.000-07:00

thanks to these people for th care and concern when i was feeling real unwell. appreciate it lots =))

after th discussions of th ramification of th SYF thingy, i was like, haishh. now then want to make changes. pretty please let th history of last two years repeats again ths year!!! when one talk some unpleasant stuff 'bout you, cnfrm you'll be like, EHY F YOU LUHH, kann? now, here i am to say ehy, F you luhh!!! you dont anyhow create your own story when you dont even know th truth, kay? and apart from that, you dont even bother to make th effort to fork out th truth. WTH?? ironic sia. others knew already that in between th two of us lies a friendship bond. you dont have to bother telling others th false story. youre just wasting your saliva and and causing others to lose trust on you. ehy, cliche luh. zaman bila ni nak fake fake story. pfffft, burghhh!

yang penting....

2011-04-16T07:23:00.000-07:00

NADHIR!!!

last two years or so.

that was sooo supposed to be me with him =( cheyyy hehks.

see how fast has th time passed. even Nadhir's growing, duuhhhh. he soooo freaking cute. can i like kidnap him?? heeee. preview, done. one more to go. SYF!!! good luck luh eh collegues. haish, im freaking nervous right now, waiting for th time to come. wednesday! so jyeah. so basically, had SYF PREVIEW in school. i was totally shocked by th vastness of th crowd. and throughout th performance i was like, kay calm. hehh. good and bad remarks being read. i'm just so speechless. if only THAT was SYF. can you just imagine that. fuuuuh.

i thnk my stomach and throat somehow cannot accept rice =( i couldnt finish my lunch just now. th food was soooooo freaking nice. but too bad. i had to stop halfway coz ths freaking throat just coulnt accept it and i just threw up every single ingredients. haish. see, akibat nya asyik makan roti je. ps : most importantly, i am not dieting when i say i kept eating bread instead of rice.

its only th inception

2011-04-12T05:44:00.000-07:00

eye got darker and darker. *sigh*

we all shed sweats and tears together. eye bags, dark circles. haish. please please please, let th history repeat again ths year. a week more to go. its obviously th worst nightmare ever if someone were to dream unpleasant things bout you. and and th dream i had last night was *sigh* well, it wasnt really bad, i mean, yea. but now that th dream got stuck in my head, having me to remember it every now and then, haishh *sigh* you know th feeling when you tried real hard to forget someone, then something hits you and reminds you bout that someone. of course it will be like, burgh! !@%

kay siow uh.

2011-04-05T05:42:00.000-07:00

trainings like EVERYDAY. homeworks, too, like EVERYDAY. tests like EVERY WEEK. think funny isit give tons of homeworks like everyday and tests like every week? where got time to study? haiya. trainings started again like last two years. now then i feel like in last two years situation. lately behave like a rebellion. never complete homeworks on time. sad right. people thought that i am th type who would always get task done on time. but real fact for ths year, hmmmmm, its simply th opposite. ehsai uh ehsai. hahah!

chris medina =)

2011-04-05T05:40:00.001-07:00

great times

2011-03-22T02:56:00.000-07:00

i wanna learn guitar and piano. those two are like, fun fun fun! Ajie Feez Nasir Ain Zulbob Amy ( hope i didnt missed out any names ) thought me th guitar. now that i know th basics, its gerek glerrr. hee. as for piano, Izhar gonna teach me. and he's willing to bring his keyboard over to my place. awwwwe, how sweet. hahha. kay FAKE! hee. so now that i have Dinah around every sno training, im learning a few song from her. fun nyeeeer! hee. studies so far, okay luh. but !@#$% lurh! i forgot what ive learnt for th past. pfffft! now i need someone to guide me in all th subjects. and again, Izhar's willing to help me in SS. thanks gtu loh. i need a tutor for maths and science! like anyone??? haiyaa.

last week, had granny in th house ((((: never been as happy as those days when she was with us. she spent three days two nights here. it was a long term ever since last we ate together, and at last, wish granted. thank Allah so much :'))

"if you get bronze, silver or gold. its just a matter of colours. whats important is, you know youve trained hard and you know youve given them th bes

2011-03-22T02:20:00.000-07:00

*extreme left - now thats th gerek-est principle ever! *

been really really busy with sno. four to five days of trainings every week. so, really wish that all th hard works ths while got pay off with satisfying result. you know th feelings of last two years when a guy announced, " AK 12, siglap secondary school.. GOLD! " and we were all went out of mind. screaming our organs out like nobody business. and when he said again, " wait wait wait. it's GOLD!... with HONOURS! " and again, we were really screaming out loud. tears started to burst out. then hearts wouldnt stop beating faster and faster. you know that kinda feeling? Gosh. i swear it was th best moment ever. having to look at our banners hung around th school, it just wouldnt make me stop sensing th past years situation.

2011-03-18T04:48:00.000-07:00

HayaniA 's away, as usual. hehks. miss her "ugly" laugh. hmm. ths week was somehow awesome! apart from th tiring trainings, had guitar sessions. i swear it was freaking fun.just got back from guitar session with Feez. and finally, i kinda 'mastered' new stuff. chey, mcm P. hehks. and and, i witnessed two damn cats who had been making funny noises under th void deck all ths while and all these while, it sounded like a baby's cry. cool tak cool? and and these two damn cats made me climbed from th chair to th table. it was freaking scary sia, sriuz shitay i tell you. kay shh. so basically, will be off for studying tomorrow and another guitar session with some others on sunday. and finally, school will be reopening soon on monday -,- i have yet to complete any homeworks, woah sien nehh. hmmmphs. wish me luck kay people ;)

dasar dugong!

2011-03-15T03:37:00.000-07:00

bloody ass. you made me come for every meeting but in th end, you forget 'bout me. pandai kann?! pintar skaaaali. F you. nyeaheh. dont have to tell people that you're bias if you dont want people to hate you, kay? find your fault first before finding others fault.

"presumption is th mother of all disaster" - mrK

Japan! =(

2011-03-14T03:50:00.000-07:00

people are all talking about th greatest challenge faced in Japan. here i am, in Singapore, worried as much as those in Japan. it started off bit by bit and soon, it will come to end. may Allah give me th chance to correct my wrong doings before i finally leave ths wide meaningful lovely world. may Allah shepherd me to th right path. and may Allah give me clues to why am i still here in ths world.

cest la vie !

2011-03-12T21:04:00.000-08:00

twelve march twentyeleven. biggest day of the month. i felt like a polytechnic student after the three days straight at RP. chey *mcm P* hehks. jyeah, i repeat, three days straight. it was freaking F-ing fun, inspite of th tiring week or i mean weeksssss. so can you like imagine, within that one whole day, you have to change attire for like six times? and i mean it, SIX TIMES!! woaaah right? but afterall, no regrets. gala, as usual, was th bestest greatest grand-ness show ever! after finale, i shouted all my organs out. it was a total relieve. thank Allah for th great success. i was told that everyone attended Cest La Vie just to see SN0. and i was like, kay wow. thank Allah again and again. we did our best, we gave it all in. and all th tiring training was paid of with congrats and compliment. and again, thank Allah. now, one down, one more to go (SYF!!!)

2011-03-05T07:50:00.000-08:00

2011-03-05T07:35:00.000-08:00

see, see, see. i had fun in school. *macam P* haiya. school was okay luh. so you see, ths is what we'll do when there's no teacher(s) around. cute right? ahahah. i'm exhausted already. been awaked ever since morning. thought of going study with Yaneyh after training but ended up kena "force" go for cousin's marriage thingy. now i'm rushing to study for tests next week. see, see. every week got test, every day got training. woah sey. tsk. now i'm soooo freaking stress + worried. haishooo.

2011-02-26T00:04:00.000-08:00

back again with akak's lappy, hee. so, just came back from training. first few hours spent th time for sno gamelan training. th next few hours, had rehearsal for cest la vie, drum thingy. come for cest la vie, kay? kay great! hee. so jyeah, basically, ths week sriuzly busy with trainings and revising for tests. my G. i hope i can cope with ALL ths stuffs till syf, or not th botanic garden performance thingy. woah, ths year sure gonna be th chaotic year. so niway, had gotten back my common test results except malay and social studies cos those two teachers got reservice thingy -,-. thank God, i pass ALL. and i hope i pass my social studies too *pray hard* i dont know how well have i done for it simply cos i wrote shits on th paper. woah, Fadt Fadt.. hee. i hate i when i speak totally broken english. hehh. nehmind, time will tell how far i need/ must improve till N level english first paper (oral). peace out ! (Y)

ps : teacher said i mustn't gain weight from now till cest la vie ( so cute, hee ), or else, i wouldn't fit in my vest which i didn't expect th size was xs for me. my G! ( bey nak proud eh. chey no luh )

2011-02-19T22:31:00.000-08:00

i lazy study for Amaths!!!! only one paper away and it had been very stressful even though the results so far that i've just received was kinda satisfying. but when it comes to studying, it kills my brain cells. if only i was born to be smart. smart in handling things. smart to choose the right path. and not only smart when talking. burgh! i kinda hate my life right now. i dont know what's wrong with me. neither should people be asking what is wrong with me. ergh! aku stress, sumpah! pssssssst, can i like die, now? N level! postpone please? next year or so, can right? ergh! );

2011-02-19T21:33:00.000-08:00

heyya, back! so tell me how long has it been ever since th last time i blogged, hah? my G. dont know why, my comp just wouldnt let me log in to my blog. ape daa. but lucky akak had been so kind to lend me her lappy. thanks akak! =D kay, simply just wanna update bout memorable thingy that just happened around ths month.

twelve 0two two0oneone,

well, first was th CNY performance at ELIAS CC. yea, cmon luh, Elias CC? so th tuuuud. but then it was th best performance so far for th SNO. simply bcos when we were performing, th crowd, which was thousands over, got their eyes on us. and th first song we played, they were like clapping along. after that first song ended, they were like, "one more! one more!" that was th best moment i tell you. and so was th MC. she was like, "ah satu lagi, satu lagi" and that was th only performance so far that i smiled throughout. aisey bedah.

nineteen 0two two0oneone,

had kendarat at hougang. before that i got myself up early morning for school. then i was late, or rather i mean, i thought i was late to meet th rest at th meeting point. but i wasn't th only one. so Alisya arrived first, then me, then we waited for Izhar. then, it was damn late, so Haslinah and Zulka decided to take a cab there. so left me, Alisya and Izhar. we took 88, like we were told, then so confident that we will stop exactly at th opposite side of Xinmin Primary, like we were told. then, tup tup, we landed at ang mo kio. how else further can we reached if we were to continue our journey in that bus. so lucky that we decided to drop at one stop and a cab drove just behind th bus. so we board it, and i felt like cursing th time. tak bersalah eh? hehh. then bla bla bla, we reached, apologized, ate then start working. i must say, ALL the SMALL kids there were so cute, my G. then we were like, "confirm da besar handsome/lawar" then bla bla bla. took pictures like here and there. then on th way back, most unforgettable part was th convo in th bus and macD.

at macD,

izhar : Zul baju kau lace untok apee ? simpan pen eh? Hhahaahahahaha
zulka : Diam laa kau ! hahaaa .
Fathiah : Padahal kau poon adee sia Izhar! HAHAHAHAHAAH !
Izhar : EH ALAMAK ! AHAHAHAHAAA !

Fadt : uhhhh, ckap orang lagi. kau lagi ade empat ! hahahhaahahah!

Izhar face went utterly red. and we were like laughing our stomach, intestines and hear out !
XD
Hahahahahahahahh ~

* pictures will be upload at facebook, or not here, somewhere next week or so.

Updating for her.

2011-02-17T02:15:00.000-08:00

ok, hayani here. Fathiah, is having difficulties, logging in to blogger. Too bad. recently, we have been very busy with cca, school and other private stuff. No time for, slacking or whatever shit, like we used to do last year. Cest La vie in just 3 weeks. Then syf. Trust me, fathiah really want these to end really soon. Badly. Haha, even myself. Things are getting out of hand, and we are shagged. Ok, i dont know what else to update. Toodles.

2011-02-01T04:44:00.000-08:00

so cute. mom was story telling about my brother. she said that he was praying to God saying, " dont rain tomorrow, ya Allah. " then ths morning, it wasnt raining when we were on th way to school and he told my mom, " woah today no rain uh mak. " "ya luh " "see, i pray onee." cute gler.... hahaha
ths week so swey. it was only monday. i fell down th stairs. nyahah! i was talking to soulsista Yaneyh confidently, then, baaaam! kedebaaaab i fell. hahhah. so embarrassing. but then, nehmind luh. i thick skin one. no worries, laugh all you want. it's okay, it's alright. Fadt Fadt, fight fight fight. hehehhe. korang jaga uhhh. amak! then on th way back home, when i was eating, something dripped. not bird shit uh. hee. ths is th return for laughing at others. sad right? now my butt damn pain. damn!

2011-02-01T04:25:00.000-08:00

you are your deepest driving desire. as your desire is, so is your will. as your will is, so is your deed. as your deed is, so is your destiny. -Linda C. Drake.

2011-01-29T05:40:00.000-08:00

outta with soul sister Yaneyh. had fun with her. as usual, laughter accompanied us as our legs brought us from her to else where. hahah! i know, she know =D so cute, no umbrella, plastic beg pun jadi uh. hahah! so basically, after SN0, went to tamp.
monday - sno till six thirty.
tuesday - class end tll four thirty
wednesday - sno till six thirty
thursday - study time till three fortyfive
friday - sno till six thirty
saturday - sno till dontknow what time.
sunday - for sure will be busy doing homeworks till late night.
woaaaaah! ths routine gonna go on and on till syf or not till cestlavie. my G. ths year there's like many performance. lucky that after syf, all sec fours and fives stand down. but then, i feel like wanna perform for all th shows. but, too bad. i'm going crazy being costume ic. damn!

life is priceless.

2011-01-28T05:35:00.000-08:00

a day,
mdm Shahrul : what's your name uh? you look like one of th senior here, Farsha.
me : huh? ya, there (pointing to Farsha right behind me)
mdm Shahrul : uh, see same.

th next day,
mdm Shahrul : ehy, why your face and her face same uh?? (pointing to me then to Farsha)
Farsha : hehh, she's my sister luh.
mdm Shahrul : aouh, no wonder. i was wondering why suddenly there's two of you. slow sia. hahah

next day,
Faiqah : Fathiah face like Farsha ehy. same sey.
Irma : uhuh, ya luh, adik bradik what.
Faiqah : sriuz??? no wonderr.

next day,
Nevin : wait.. Faaaa.. thiah.. Fathiah?
me : duh, hehh.
Nevin : walaowey, why you wear like that?
me : got cca what.
Juwen : you dont know her, Nevin?
Nevin : no luh. she wear like that, i hardly recognise her. i got confuse with her and Hayani. walao!

Austin : eh, so th one just now walking down there was you luh??
me : ya luh. duhh. cant you even recognise me?? your classmate ley, how could you.
Austin : hahah. no luh, you look like one sec five girl. the big picture at th foyer.
me : i look like her? potek luh you. she'd my sister.
Austin : really? your sister? no wonder. look alike sia

just,
Farsha friend : she's your sister uh??
Farsha : ya, you know right.
Farsha friend : yeah. you know how i know? coz her hair. i was like, "ehy ths hair look very familiar leh" then think again, oh, its th same as yours.

W0W isnt it?? four years in Siglap Sec, people still got mixed up even though there's like a huge different between me and Farsha/Hayani and whoever they thought i was. but my favorite was Farsha's friend confo. just by th hair, she can tell. cool tak cool? hahah

2011-01-28T04:58:00.000-08:00

it's only th beginning of th year (two zero one one). in fact its only th first month and a lot of things had happened. i swear i hate it. really hate it. th fact that everyone has his/her own opinions about how others behave/look like. "susah eh nak hidop dngn orang hypocrite" yea. true enough. its just like you're hiding from who you really are. ehy, c'mon luh. no matter how successful you've managed to hide from others, sooner or later, they will know. you got no life ma man. just stop your act luh.
we've been friends for a VERY long tyme. enough of me losing a friend last month (as for now) bcoz of my stupid mistakes. dont repeat any of my stupid mistake(s) and having me to lose another amazing fun friend. (Y)

2011-01-22T02:39:00.000-08:00

i swear i will forever fall sick. LBP??? true ke? gosh. thanks uh eh. illness, shooooooo!

2011-01-22T02:22:00.000-08:00

name je kawan. kau kate prangai orang macam S. abey kau?? baek sngt pe. F off luh deyh. tau takot. da buat salah baru nak kecot satu mcm. g jay-hanam uh. kau ubah prangai S kau tu dulu baru bley bobal. sumpah takd bodek sia. ade mulot, sendiri mau jaga uh. orang tak mintak simpati, kau nak kate macam macam. kau tu yang muke spuluh cent. gini kawan?? kay pk dalam dalam peyh eh. skrang ada otak, sendiri mau pk uh!

2011-01-14T06:11:00.000-08:00

school been very very very interesting. oh well, i know it S**** sometimes but i find it kinda fun. so, second week of school, as predicted, studies all th way. most importantly, funny lame jokes still remain between soul sista Yaneyh and myself. she sang ths one song, annoying? neh. funny! like Ismail Haron like that. hahha. english lesson, Ms Teri set ths siting arrangement, and i sat with soulsista Yaneyh. aisey bedah. once joke is cracked, we wont stop laughing like mad, thats for sue, standard. hahah. fun tak fun? hee. and and oh, 2011 kinda different. malay, no longer cikgu Idah. now it's mr Haris, new "interesting" malay teacher i ever had. *laugh out loud* inside joke kinda thing. cannot share here (Y) and and social studies, no longer Mdm Aisyah, it's MrChan. fun luhh sey. now i'm in love with Social studies. cool tak cool? hehh. soo, may ths changes change for th better. i bet so. had sec one cca day performance. it was fun luh sey, way fun-ner than what we expect it would be, cheers =D.
there can be miracles, when you believe. though hope is frail, it's hard to kill. who knows what miracle that you can achieve? when you believe, somehow you will a shia a shia a shia a shiiaaaaa

2011-01-11T01:20:00.000-08:00

happy 16th birthday (in advance) !! which is tomorrow =) so jyeah, to Z, happy sixteenth birthday! may ALL your wishes come true. and and all th best for your future! whatever th thing is, you have been th greatest wonderful guy'friend' i ever been with and and you're th very best guy'friend' i ever had, believe me =)) and if you're still mad at me, i'm truly very sorry. i just cant forget th past, hmmphs. kay shut! soo jyeah, have a blast on ths special day of yours, yea? =)) xoxo

2011-01-08T23:09:00.000-08:00

first of week of school so far was okay luh. oh ya, last thursday went to science centre. =,=?? not really. it was F-ing fun. went CSI, which is just next to it. oyA. it was damn fun. soulsista Yaneyh and i went in and out to complete all th cases. and guess what? ive received th diploma already! cool tak cool? hahah. kay shut! soo jyeah, we completed ALL th three cases and went to th science centre. and and, we were late! we were supposed to be back by three forty five. but then, they waited for us ten to fifteen minutes after that. hee. but still th bus wasnt there yet when we reached th entrance. friday, had dont know what talk. it was kinda boring. obvious isnt it? we spent like four hours in th hall. siting there, listen and "enjoy". after recess, we were told that there will be a singer who will come over and "entertain" us. we thought it would be Hady Mirza coz he used to school at SSS. but we were wrong. it was Jai. soo jyeah. talk talk talk, and finally, sing. yea, he sang for us. then there's another entertainer that was brought up on stage. he's what we call th beat-boxer only saliva came out. hahah! soo, thats about it for week one. i'm pretty sure next week onwards, study study study!

2011-01-05T05:29:00.000-08:00

school had started. like finally. i was, ergh!!! when i found out that the schools' system had changed. for th 'better' which i felt like for the worst, instead. now, school will end slightly later than what it used to be. especially on tuesdays! from 1230 to 0430. it was like, double-U _ tee _ H! tell me who can survive till that long. and straight studies! Gosh sake. =,= haiyaa. so now, gotta bear with it. first week of school, in fact i shall say, first day of school, we started lesson already. N mah, what o do. haiy. Amaths is somehow killing me. first new topic learn in new year was, ergh! mrVes really have to slap me hard in th face. gotta wake up. 0,0 tsk! will be busy with discussions???, studies, trainings. hehh. so, whatever th thing is, i wont be updating ths blog as often as i do.
ths year's resolutions

study like mad! *its a MUST
achieve grade As and Bs in N.
stop "mlats"

2011-01-02T23:15:00.000-08:00

school will start like in 17 hours time (according to my clock). and i have yet to pack my stuffs. my cupboard is still in a huge mess. last year's SHITS are still in there. and i was like, 0yA. lazy luh sia. gosh. what's happening to me?? tsk. Fadt Fadt. oh ya, i haven't complete my homeworks. one simple reason, i have not been searching for it since th day i went back from camp. and that was like two weeks ago. baaaaamb! but i guess ive completed at least 80 percent of it. okay or not? haiyaaa. can anyone, and i mean ANY0NE, give me a tight slap on ths face of mine? real tight i mean. i dont know why is it so hard for me to get ths bare hands of mine to do some simple jobs such as clearing my own cupboard. tsk! a year had pass, and i have less than a year to prepare for th major exam that i'll be siting in bla bla bla more months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, seconds. *sigh* can i ask for a postpone? i wanna be like my sister uh. she used to say "D0NT TALK A SINGLE THING AB0UT NEITHER N N0R 0" Gosh!!!!!! kepale lutot btol! *sighhhhhhhh* hmmmmmphs. -,-

2011-01-02T06:23:00.000-08:00

woaaaah! th 'brothers' i just talked about are okay already. woah! baek uh! now, dont fight fight, kay? think before you talk. dont be like me, asal bley hembus je. hee. happy for them. why dint ths happen to me? mean like, fight then within less than 24 hours, forgive and forget ? =( haiya. FADT, gotta tell yourself that it's really over. it's just too late for you to go back there. need to find a way, need to keep your pride on with your life. sick and tired of ths situation. hmmphs.
TWo ZERo oNE oNE!! better be good to me, kay? hehks. i'm turning sixteen ths year!! soo fast?? and i still feel like i'm secondary two. and i want my secondary two life back! tsk! FADT! wake up luh! youre getting older each day! move on! *slap face* oh ya, will be taking N and 0 ths year. aisey bedah. people kept saying that they've already starting to revise. and i was like, serious?? why are you guys so rajin?? i'm still stressing on my guitar! hahah. funny? yea l_l_l gotta study real hard ths year. especially maths and and english and and malay. chemistry!!!! ergh! get lost luhh! hehh. pray for me yea people. for th good, NoT th BAD. hee.

2011-01-01T23:28:00.000-08:00

dearest friend,
chill alright? i thought i was th only one who had lost such a great and wonderful friend. but, neh. we both encountered th same thing. hmm, try and talk to him je luh. if he refuse to listen to all your sayings, then we shall take all in and put th blames on us. but dont always blame yourself, coz.. uhm, you know i know. soo, for now, have a talk with him. what happen after ths, we shall just accept it and go on with life, yea? nope, i wont break ths friendship that we're just about build, for no reason =) i'm sure ths happened for a reason. i'm sure nothings bad gonna happen. you guys are already like brothers. soo, jyeah, dont worry. and and, yea. take care =) all th best and and good luck! chillex ay aytey?
in another hand, i shall say, bodoh! chey no luh. why you insult him in th first place? W W.. tsk tsk. good luck luh korang. brothers kata kan.

2010-12-31T21:17:00.000-08:00

Iqmal Yakin. soo cute ^^

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

so simply, yesterday went out with bloods, with th exception of Daddy and Fhy. went to grandma/pa house in Bedok as last week we dint visit them. i followed for th sake of bonestick. and also because i miss them lurh, duhh. heheh =)) then Akak said wanna go countdown but, neh. haraaaam. hee. oh ya, th bonestick vely vely vely nice =D

Iqa - mommy !
Mummy - what?!
Iqa - my chest pain
Mummy - uh, take take (ask to take oilmen)
Iqa - cant move !
Mummy - Iki, take ubat ! (asked Iki to take oilmen)
Iki - i'm floating (siting on a table with his legs up, not touching th ground)
mummy - you what float?? you sink uh
th rest of us - hahhahahahahhahahahhahah! *laugh one kind vely vely vely loud*
cute kan kite?? hahah!

what i heard
Iqa - mommy !
Mummy - what?!
Iqa - suspender
Mummy - uh, take take
Iqa - kaaamuuu !!
deaf hah? hahah. no luhh, if you hear th way she said, you'll also heard th same as what i heard. haha.

2010-12-29T04:24:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 20TH ANNIVERSARY T0 DEAREST MUMMY AND DADDY. may Allah bless th two of you, and most importantly, mintak mintak luh panjang kan umur. iloveyouboth F-ing much!!

kayy, lately been practicing on 'my new guitar'. oh well, it isn't really "mine" and "new". akak got it from a friend of hers who's no longer using it. so now, it's "ours". hee. now, my fingers started to 'blunt'. hehh, mcm P. pain ya know. but Ajie said, that's what i gotta accept if i really wanna play. and yea, i'm sure gonna bear with th pain. woah sey. hehh. and and, i'm sick =( real sick. each time i sneeze, my throat will feel like one kind like that, uneasy ya know? apart from that, i feel like vomiting and my head feel dizzy like almost all of th time. but my appetite quite big tau. why uhr? weird tak weird? but true enough uh. tsk. school's reopening soon, so sickness, pretty please shoo away, can?? tsk, pfffft. hmmmmphs.

new year's coming. so, new year. new hobby. new life. new time table. new event(s). BUT! SAME ME. hee.

2010-12-28T00:48:00.000-08:00

Gotta get rid of ALL those annoying posts. yeah, buat sakit mate, sakit otak and most importantly, SAKIT HATI. aisey bedah. yes, i cannot force love. tsk. what to do, eh? it's okay, it's alright. accept th fate and MUST go on with ths special F-ing complicated life, yea? hmmphs. nehmind luh. it was my fault. it's okay if you dont want to talk to me. but one thing for sure, forgive me? haish. tu luh Fadt, asal bley tuduh. skrng yang menyesal.. KAU jgk. tsk. pffffft! Fadt Fadt.. so people, put th blame on me, yea? he's N0T at fault AT ALL. it was mainly + mostly my fault. stupid right? jyar, Fadt mah. what to do, eh? tsk. kay luhh. through all ths thicks and thins, i've learn th true meaning of FRIENDSHIP. once trust is lost, that's it. end up like ths luh like ths, not like that eh. like ths. padan muke Fadt, nyahah. lastly, FadtmissZ, FadtlovesZ. Fadt trust Z. kay?? kay, bye!

2010-12-25T21:09:00.000-08:00

went out with dearest family yesterday. planned to go both grandparents house in Bedok and Simei. but last minute got to know that there's no one in Bedok. so visited th ones in Simei only. hours of sitting and playing with th keciks there, went to pasar malam. as usual, bought ths bought that, mostly were foods. and yea, thats about it. oh ya, know what? guess what? heheh. i'm obsess with peanuts!!! why uhr? hahah. kayy =,=" whatever th thing is, Fadt mengidam nuts. again! weird but true enough. hee.

lately i've been thinking about what i can do. i've been stressing to fall back in love with you. i'm sorry that i couldnt follow through. but i cant go on ths way, i gotta stop it. youve been wonderful in all that you can be. so believe me, i am sorry. i wanted you to be there. i wanted you to show me what i need. i wanted you to know just how down deep. i've been pushing hard to open up th door. trying to take us back to where we were before. but i'm done. i just cant do it anymore.cause we cant be mended, so let's stop pretending now. we've been walking around a circle for some time. and i think we should head for th finish line. i'm sorry.

looking back to where we were, it was mostly my fault. i am to be blame. i just dont know why it was hard for me to believe all your says. even when i kept telling myself that i'm just jealous. but for what reason? i just dont know why. loving one doesnt mean we cant like others. like many but only love one. and if you happen to read ths post, i sure am missing you, soooooofreakingFmuch. i'm sorry for all th negative thoughts. i miss being with you. and yea, i just cant deny when someone asked me, "kau masih sayangkan Z? " i refused to nod, but deep down, yes, i still love you. action speaks more than words. if only i dare to go to your place, i would. but now, i'm stuck here with trainings, homeworks and packing up stuffs. i'm just so sorry. if only i had thrown all those negative thoughts. if only i know that i should trust you.if only if only.

2010-12-24T21:23:00.000-08:00

let th pictures do th talking. so basically went to pasir ris CC with Akak. she asked me to accompany her. waited for Abang Adieq, nothng to do, so we took pictures. then met Ami Bob Ajie Syafiq Aidil (mr)Shah and (mr)Andhika. dint expect to meet them there. they had bbq pit there at CC. cool tak cool?? heheh. then Ajie pulled me to be one of them. so jyeah, i joined them. (mr) Shah was like siak. he kept saying, " so which is yours? " "you tell your mother under whose name? Ajie ke Ami ke? " i was like, tsk! makan peyh makan. laugh peyh laugh. talk peyh talk. i forgot th time. Akak said nine thirty under th block. but it was nine thirty already and i'm still at th pit. heheh. soo, rushed out at around nine fifty. hee. soo, jyeah. andoh ya. got story. funny luhh jgk. i was at th lift lobby. then, there's ths three boys luh. keciks and besar. they were ducking, donno why. th lift reached, th big guy said, "oi mak! terkejot aku. aku pk takd orang. skali toleh, ade pmpn plak" hahahahaha! slengs sia. i was like, km! fake sia tak prasan. then in th lift, same guy " nasib baik bkan baju putih. klau tak, da terajang aku. bley mati keras! " hahah! bikin hahah! btol uh dhek ni.

2010-12-23T04:55:00.000-08:00

back from camp.
tuesday : went to hougang sec, met HN0 members as we had combined training with them in their school. training was as usual, non stop. trained till lunch. th food was, ohkay luh. but soon after eating them, i vomited. then my leftovers rice cried coz i have no choice but to throw them. sad huh? haish. after lunch, rest for awhile in th girls' bunk. aisey bedah, best luh swey their bunk. so then, we played some games. dog and bone and, ada uh. hehh. after resting, back to training. th bass kena trained like mad. i still have yet to memorise th score. hard y'know. kayy, then after hours of training, we played team bonding game. captain ball. th hougeans won. mcm, amaaak. hehh. then we split, th guys played soccer, and th girls lek lu, play with th ball, took jump shots and stuff like that. after playing, we rest, again. Irma and i sat on their swing. then th guys came. there's ths one part, Ami asked their food ic, "eh Wan, makan mane makan. da dinner! " i glanced th surrounding and saw Wan siting on th floor, eating chicken, searching for Ami. bukan maen sdap lagi dia makan. kekek luh sia. hahah! then we went back to school after dinner.

wednesday : morning, as usual. woke up at five thirty, then had PT and so on. soulsista Yaneyh came with Julie after breakfast. i miss her so F-ing much! minutes to nine, HN0 came. so, training started again. that day, combined training in siglap sec. Ahjar was so th smangs, came. i feel like smacking his face each time he pressed on th word " pooom! " that was th only word he said. amaaak. then training till lunch. after lunch, rest, train again. after that, we played games. ths time, it was wayy better than th day before. played captain ball. but using different sizes of balls. kay luh, fun uh. then, played rounders. kekek luh sia. Danny (hno) made th day right. everytime he missed th ball, he will go " apa sia aku buat?? " hahah! then he scolded Hakkim (hno) for talking while he was about to hit that ball. then bla bla bla, we laughed like mad as watching them hitting th ball with different kinds of actions and watching how they fell. cute + kekek. hahah. then after rounders, played captains ball again. then volley ball. then takraw. then back to volley ball. heheh. Raudy (sno) Hakkim (hno) Fikri (hno) Azzy (sno) Zad (hno) and I played till dinner. it was fun. Zad (hno) was all th times, " my ball! no your ball! yes! " fun luh sey. then dinner, we had pit. after dinner, each different sections were given task. was about to stand, suddenly i found myself in outer space. my head just flung. i was like, Gosh! what happen sia? then i fell on th ground, blank!. total black out. Ikan was panic, she's th one on my side. awwwwwe. thanks so much. mrKhamis, Alisyah and Ikan kept saying i might have LBP coz it was not th first time. i was like, neh, nothing luhh. so then, after that night, mrKhamis Ikan and Alisyah asked me to go home. so i was back home, giddy. gosh! soo, instead of three days two nights, i only stayed for two days, one night. but after all, it was a blast. superB!

Irma! iknow, you know. anak jepun and braces. heheh. oh yar, Bob! thanks for th watch! hee. and i lost my purple rubber band! =(((

2010-12-20T01:51:00.000-08:00

they had been always there for me. its me and only me, who doesnt know how to show how lucky am i to have them by my sides. yeah, that's what sisters are for. th hugs, theirs concern made me cried. i'm sorry for letting you girls down with my cold shoulders. i know that i've been ignoring you girls eventhough we're under th same roof and plus we have each experience th same thing. when you girls kena, i could only lend my ears and willingly listen to your cries. but when i kena, you girls were there to give me th warm hug and those sayings really made me cry. very very touching. awwwe. and for your info, i cried not bcoz of what had happened, but it's because of you girls. thank you soo much. iloveyougirls. ~

2010-12-19T03:33:00.000-08:00

ape ke jadah maen hide and seek tnga tnga hujan bukak baju? tak sejuk pe?? hahha. Gosh. kekek. i told Irma and Azzy about how THAT guy reacted when he saw me from th other end all th way till th lift lobby. funny, FTY. th phrase "alamak! terkejot aku" really made me burst into laughter all th times. hadoiy! =') and till now that i still could hear his voice repeating that phrase makes me cry. tears of joy uh deyh. hahah. soo cute, so kekek. if only he knows that i'm laughing at him right now, he would slap me, for sure. hahah. sorry uh boiy, but it really was very very very very funny! =''))